You keep saying yes while something in you quietly goes numb.   You are tired in a way that sleep cannot touch, and when someone asks what you actually want, you feel a kind of blankness, or panic, or anger that has nowhere to land. This reflection sits right in that exhausted space, for the person who has spent a long time making other people more comfortable than themselves and is no longer sure what desire even means. If you recognize yourself here, you are not being analy